Tuesday, September 2, 2014

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED (BIG BROTHER RULES)






It’s 9.06AM and I am at work and I just received a text that my grandpa was gone. I was just thinking about him yesterday and hoping we would be able to get him to visit and at the same time …….THIS WAS ALL I MANAGE TO TYPE YESTERDAY I DONT KNOW WHY I STARTED TYPING AS SOON AS I READ THE TEXT MESSAGE YESTERDAY AND THEN LIKE 10 MINUTES LATER I COMPLETELY BROKE DOWN AND CRIED ( I called my mom and she was surprisingly calm (imagine o how can I cry pass her the person that lost her father, I am supposed to be the consoler but I ended been the consolee if this isn’t a word forgive me as I kill one of your brain cells) she tried to calm me down and I got excused from work. (I have to gush about my coworkers later on I’m blessed to work with such loving people) so anyhoo it suddenly dawned on me that I lost the remaining grandparent I had and because on Saturday I thought about him coming to pay a visit and thinking about sending him some cash and smiling to myself because I knew he would hand out the money like Nigerian politicians hand out rice and oil and give more than half to this his new girlfriend. I also thought about calling him but I was like naww I’m going to do that later on, and as it turns out it too late. I felt so bad and to top it off when I went to bed I felt so tensed Sunday night and didn’t sleep well at all I literally woke up anxious with my jaws hurting and I even told my coworker when I got to work that I felt so uneasy today and I didn’t know why this was at 7am Monday morning and by 9.06AM it happened. I left work (all of my coworkers gave me a hug and please don’t ever overlook the power of a hug it meant the world to me because I needed it at that moment) and went back to my hotel room and just cried and cried and fell asleep. when I woke up I started interrogating GOD Because I was like I thought we had an agreement no more deaths, as I have already proven that I don’t deal well with this and I cried some more. I also felt bad that as his first grandchild he had an opportunity to see his future great grand if GOD HAD JUST GIVEN HIM MORE TIME. I THREW A WONDERFUL WOE IS ME, WHY ME GOD PARTY FOR ONE. AND THEN BOOM!! I remembered that I promised myself that whenever something good or bad happens that I am going to be grateful to GOD and praise him regardless of how I feel and I should be grateful he went in a quick painless manner because a lot of people suffer and experience painful deaths. so I started my praise and worship jam session and I prayed and thank God for a life well lived, that he didn’t suffer, he had children, he was relatively healthy for all of his life (rarely sick) he lived to the age of 83 (we all know Nigeria’s life expectancy is around 50 something I believe) and I started feeling better. around 7pm my coworkers got off work and they decided to hang with me and dragged me to a restaurant and I had fun and they all gave me more HUGS and some even gave me double and triple hugs (what more could I have asked for) like one is not enough lol which meant the world to me it just made me feel so much better. I felt loved. so when I went back to my room I throw a party of one (well GOD AND I SHA) A WORSHIP JAM SESSION IN HONOR OF MY LATE GRANDPA till almost 2am because I couldn’t sleep and I cried a little but it made me feel a whole better and I was at peace with it. When GOD says it's time it time after all the steps of a man are directed by God and I refuse to give the devil a chance to make me sad or depressed. RIP Grandpa, I love you very much but God loves you more and say hi to Grandma for me.  (Warning o I heard there is no marriage in heaven so plz the both of you must behave yourself on this reunion REMEMBER YOU ARE NOW IN GODS PRESENSE NO KISSING UP THERE DIARIS NOW GOD AND ANGELS IN EVERYTHING BOTH OF YOU ARE DOING O HE IS WATCHING YOU WITH KOROKORO EYES NOW AND SAY WHATSUP TO MY DADDY )

12 comments:

  1. Awww..the last part of this post got me..say whatsup to my daddy. May your grand daddy's soul rest in peace. Be strong dear. Come take a blogville hug *open arms*

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    1. appreciate it hun #hugs (i am ebola free lol)

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  2. Hello dear, hope you are ok? Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this difficult time. Sending hugs and kisses your way, dear xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxox

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    1. hugs and kisses back to you !!!! thanks hun it was much appreciated

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  3. Oh mami...I am soo sorry bout this....**sad face**....I am really sorry...I wish I could give you a hug....**sad face** I am not sure what to type anymore...I couldn't even finish reading the post...It is well mami....you are gonna be just fine...

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    1. awwww thank hun , hugs back to you it is well.

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  4. Thank God you got yourself back. Don't mind the devil trying to put you down. It's ok to cry. God is definitely patting you on the back. May your grandpa rest in the comforting arms of God! Uniquely different with Fredilia

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    1. aint that the truth it is well, thank you for your comment Hugs to u also

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  5. HAHAHAHAAH....JUST REMINDED ME OF MY CRAZY MEMORY...PLEASE CHECK OUT MY BLOG BLOG

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  6. *hugs hugs hugs and bigger hugs*
    And yes, praise God regardless of what maybe..that's the true test of faith.
    You will conquer dear.

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    1. aww thanks hun i totally appreciate it :-) sad as it is for us (here on earth)there aint nothing better than meeting your maker at the right time

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